Christmas stirs up many memories
Memories of trips to Russia
and the first time I saw my daughters.
Memories that will live within me for a life time
but have taken me years to write.
Because they move me deeply.
I had never planned to adopt a second child.
No, life was good parenting my only daughter.
But at age 7 she tugged at my heart again and again
with these simple words.
“We have so much love in our family. Can’t we share it with another little girl?”
My immediate no was changed to yes on a weekend trip to the beach in October.
I walked back and forth
seeking God’s Will.
Back and forth many times.
I had to get it right.
There I sensed it clearly while the waves lapped the cool sand
and the wind tosseled my hair.
So I immediately began to pursue a second adoption.
How I manage it all? Only God knew.
But He seems to like to do the unusual, the unexpected
to show His Glory.
So in a few months I was flying to Ukraine.
Seeking His Will.
But the trip that began with so much excitement and joy
ended after 3 weeks with no child.
A failed adoption they called it.
There’s no words to describe the pain of that loss.
Carefully I hid away the little clothes I had purchased and those tiny pink shoes.
It was too hard to look at them.
God’s Will does not always lead to outward success.
No, sometimes He allows us to experience painful loss.
Loss that hurts but loss that He, the Greatest Healer, knows just how to treat.
It was 2 years after this unexpected loss
that I began again my search for that little girl
who needed her forever family.
Delays are never delays in God’s eyes —only preparation time.
That’s exactly what it was
as my daughter and I waited for God’s time.
God will make a way
where there seems to be no way.
He works in ways we cannot see.
He will make a way for me…..and you.
Do you need to hear those words today?
They are so true. You can trust God’s timing, His Plan.
Love keeps working behind the scenes for you and for me.
The day I was told by the adoption agency to expect a package
I knew that the time had finally arrived