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Just Imagining

I remember the first time I heard the song I Can Only Imagine years ago.

Actually 1999.

It moved me to tears thinking of what I would see in heaven. One day.

Being with the Lord.

Walking by His side.

Forever in His Glory.

Joy filled my heart just trying to imagine it.

Then in 2009 my beloved mom went home to be with the Lord and at her request

I Can Only Imagine was played at her funeral.

Tears.  Thinking of her walking those streets with the Lord.

Surrounded by His Glory.

Hope filled my heart as I thought of being with my mom again

and together being with the Lord. One day.

The song brought comfort to my aching heart.

Recently I saw the movie I Can Only Imagine and was moved to tears

as the story of redemption and forgiveness and hope unfolded.

Have you seen it?

This story that touched me deeply. I wept through the whole movie.

My heart feeling the pain of the son who was emotionally and physically abused. Overflowing with emotion for his father who inspired him to write the song.



Simply hurting.

What a powerful reminder that forgiveness heals.

Forgiveness restores.

And forgiveness is possible.

How about you?

Do you struggle as you remember a loved one who is no longer here?

Daily dealing with grief and loss?

Daily feeling the emptiness of life without them?

And how about forgiveness—

Do you or someone you know need that story, that clear reminder that forgiveness

changes lives…even if that person is long since gone.

Breathe in the hope of forgiveness and grace.

Let it seep into those aching places of your soul and begin a work of healing.

Yes, it’s a song and a movie worth experiencing.

Let me know if you’ve seen it and how it was for you.

And together let’s imagine what it will be like…

one day.



Mourning’s Not Forever

Nothing could have surprised me more than to discover that Elsie, Jenny’s pet hamster, had died. A few hours before she had been playing with her ball and apparently fine. But then we found her lifeless at the bottom of her cage.

Now when you are 12 and this is your ‘very own for you’ pet, this is a big, big deal.

Death is never easy but up until now Jenny had experienced advance notice. This was the first time that it caught her by surprise.

It caught all of us by surprise.

I didn’t think I would grieve the loss of a hamster but I did.

Through the night I thought and prayed about making this a teaching moment.

Only a few hours before we had sung around the piano ‘Because He Lives’.

The words came back to me during the long night hours.

Because He lives, I can face tomorrow.

Because He lives, All fear is gone.

But it hurts, Lord, to lose what we have grown attached to.

Because He lives, I can face tomorrow.

Because He lives all fear is gone.

Lord, help me to lead her into a life that trusts you no matter what.

From the moments I held this little girl I have tenderly parented her.

Life in the Russian orphanage had not been easy.

She was fragile and easily shut down.

Because I know Who holds the future.

Yes, the future. That’s the key. Helping her move forward into the future.

Remembering with love. Nothing would ever take the place of Elsie.

But embracing God’s gifts today.

Together Jenny and I went to the pet store. Just looking, mind you.

But we saw Tinker Belle at the same time.

Black and bigger than Elsie, this gerbil reminded us immediately of our beloved black lab, Savanna.

“Would you like to…?”

“Yes, Mommy. Yes,” she said giving me a big squeeze.

So now we have a new gerbil reminding us that one of the gifts of life is that it goes on.

We didn’t need to wait 6 days…or 6 months. No pet will ever take Elsie’s place.


And life is worth the living just because He lives.


Life is meant to be lived fully. To embrace all the moments, feel the pain and celebrate the victories.

Never allow yourself to become numb to the essence of life.

Mourning is not forever.

Today is a new day. Fresh and pulsating with life.

Live it.

And let Him live it through you wherever you are today.


* Because He Lives, lyrics by Bill and Gloria Gaither