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The Promise

As I scroll down my social media feed and check my email I’m overwhelmed by offers to join this and sign up for that. Good things. Yes classes, conferences, trainings that I might enjoy and benefit from. But I wonder….

Pushing away from my laptop I reach for my Bible, my trusted Companion, for many years now and begin to read.

I will instruct you and teach you in the way that you should go. I will guide you with my eyes.. Psalm 32: 8

I stopped and read it again.

Clearly God has promised to show me the way I should go and how I should live.

But day after day I am faced with more ideas than my little brain can hold.

Confusion sets in.

Paralysis grows.

Sometimes I simply choose nothing

or other times I choose what seems to make the most sense at the time.

But He has promised to teach me.

Those words echo in my head as I go about my day.

Teach me. Teach me. Teach me.

How I long just to be shown what to do and which way to go.

What to sign up for and what to ignore.

God has promised.

It seems that the distractions of this world and the constant changing confusion

make it so difficult to make Godly decisions.

But that’s what I want.

I hunger to follow Him and to be guided in His Way.

I know that I do

but again and again the fast paced, social media driven world places more options out there than I can filter.

What do I do?

Where do I turn?

Pushing away from the distraction and looking up to the One Who guides me with His eye

I quietly commit to prayerfully saying no to instant decisions and compelling options.

To slow down the process.

 I determine to prayerfully follow the leading of the One Who knows just what I need and where He wants me to be.

It will be an ongoing decision that I might easily waver from

but this time I write out the verse on a slip of paper and hang it on the wall by my computer.

More of Him, less of me.

 More of His instruction, less of my distractions.

I feel more free already.

Yes, it’s going to be a good day.



Shining Moments

If I didn’t know better,

     I’d think it wasn’t there.

I was referring to Nubble Lighthouse many years ago.

Our home away from home was close to the lighthouse.

We’d go to sleep many times listening to the sound of the foghorn

     and the familiar light.

     Then in the morning it would be standing tall

        as if to greet us.

But one summer the weather suddenly changed

    and with the cooler temperatures

     there was an unusually thick fog.

So thick that you could only see a few feet in front of you.

And Nubble Lighthouse was completely hidden from view.

Day after day went by

  and the only indication of the Lighthouse

  was the lonely sound of the foghorn

  day and night.

On the third day I longed to do something to lift the fog.

To make it go away so that once more I could see what I knew was there.

I felt helpless.

All I had was my knowledge that the lighthouse was still there.

From all I could see with my eyes

    nothing existed.

I will never forget it.

Day after day

     of waiting

     and living in the fog.

I, too, have experienced times of being sunk in a fog.

Have you?

One day follows another

   ordinary moments

The plan you thought you were following has disappeared

  and now you walk step by step

   groping as it were

   in the fog

  waiting for the light

  some indication of His Plan.

I’ve known people who have experienced that fog for long stretches of time.

Dark night of the soul, it has been called.

You pray

   and nothing seems to happen.

You pray some more.

You read Scripture and it seems as if something or someone has left.

Oh, if that is where you are now

   lift up your heart

   and be encouraged.

Your God has not left you.

It only might seem that way.

No, His Love never changes.

The times of fog or darkness are only there

   to help us know His carrying Grace through that stretch.

Nestle deep in the truths that you know.

The ones you learned maybe as a child.

“For the Lord your God will be with you wherever you go.”(Joshua 1:9)

“Though I walk through the valley of death

    I will fear no evil for Thou art with me. (Psalm 23)

“The eternal God is your refuge

    and underneath are the everlasting arms.” (Deuteronomy 33:27)


Yes, times of thick fog are difficult.

Like children, we might become fearful and alone.

But hold onto the marvelous words He has given.

He is with you

   in the sunshine

   in the darkness

   in the rain

     and in the fog.

 When the trees blossom and flower

  and when the leaves fall and the cold winds of winter blow.

He continues to hold us tenderly in His arms

 The day will come when you will see again

     and walk in the light

  but for now

  rest in His comfort and care.

All is well.


Shining Moments

I thought my world had come to an end.

   There I was hours away from home

      and my mommy and daddy and two brothers.

Suddenly sent away to stay with my aunt when my mother came down with polio.

Not knowing that I’d ever see my family again.

Not understanding.

Confused and scared.

Lost and all alone.

It was a time of seeming hopelessness that I will never forget.

Four months later my dad surprised me by suddenly showing up

    and taking me back home.

Reunited again our family of 5

   with the best Christmas I could ever want.

Everyone together.

There are times in life when the fog settles in

   covering the obvious from our eyes.

We see no indications of God at work for us.

Matter of fact, all seems hopeless.

We grope looking for something to hold on to

   but find only more nothingness.

Our ears strain to hear something

    anything to show that He cares

   only to be met with silence.

We weep with those who have lost family members

    innocent babies and

      precious children and

        loving spouses and


Where are you God? We cry.

And then as if it was yesterday I remember sitting alone on that bed

   so far from home

   and the sound of a familiar voice.

I had no idea what was going on

 as I sat there feeling so abandoned.

But God did know

   and my parents had not forgotten me.

We can not base our beliefs totally on what we see or hear or feel. There is more.

The truth is

    that although we do not understand

      might never understand

          our God knows and is still good.

This verse shines brightly “Though the fig tree does not bud and there are no grapes on the vine, though the olive crop fails, and the fields produce no food,  though there are no sheep in the pen and no cattle in the stalls, yet I will rejoice in God my Savior.” (Habakkuk 3:17-18)


Though the fog continues to surround us

   and we seem to be trapped by what we do see and hear

 let’s praise Him.

Yes, let’s lift our hearts high with praise as the tears run down our faces

We will rejoice in our God

     my Savior

     your Savior.

And if the fog lifts

    we will praise Him

      But if it doesn’t

      Yes, if it doesn’t we will yet praise Him.

     He is still worthy of our praise and we will continue to wait upon Him.

A little four year old girl discovered after a very long, seemingly endless wait

    that she was still loved.

And so are you.

Deeply loved. Infinitely treasured.

Yes, so are you.

Hold on, my friend.