It was only as I stepped out on something beyond myself
beyond my own abilities
that I began to really see God’s faithfulness.
I had always expected to be a mother
always dreamed of holding my own little, sweet smelling infant,
but when life did not unfold that way I had imagined
I waited and prayed
“Your Will, not mine, O God.”
Then suddenly, in rapid time, the sea of impossibility opened
and I found myself traveling to Russia
to adopt my little daughter.
Joy beyond words. Shining moments all over.
Single mother working full time.
Moment by moment.
Day by day.
“Expect great things from Me,” I sensed Him whispering.
Finding a mysterious bag at my front door
filled with little girl outfits, tiny shoes and tights
God’s provision. Although I never discovered who left those bags
I knew that God was behind it.
I desperately needed Him.
Then seven years later a mysterious tug at my heart.
Oh my, this was really beyond my ability to even conceive.
But I followed
one step at a time
and once again He opened the Way.
Days when I had no idea how…..
but I knew Who
so I moved forward.
A car accident a few weeks before I needed to fly to Russia to complete an adoption.
My car totaled
Agonizing over not having enough money.
Eyes focused on Him.
A never to be forgotten day when I went to work
and as I turned the key to my office
noticed a white envelope on the floor.
Heart beating wildly as I ripped it open
finding a pile of $100 bills.
Tears streaming down my face.
God you are so good. Thank you, thank you, thank you.
A chorus of praises echoing all around.
Enough. He provided exactly enough to do what He had called me to do.
Bringing my second child home.
working hard to support my girls.
Knowing we are living beyond ourselves.
But faithfully seeing it again and again and again.
Expect great things from God
Attempt great things for God. –william carey.
Our loving Lord calls us to find Him faithful
But in order to do that
we must be willing to step out on faith
beyond our own abilities.
Where if we fail, we fail.
Completely dependent on Him.
Only then will we see that He is better than we our highest thoughts.
Holy and faithful and true.
Yesterday the end of the month
depending on Him
needing Him to supply our needs.
Watching the clock
Whispers of prayers
And suddenly seeing again Him meeting every need.
Hallelujah! What a Savior!
Have you found Him faithful and true?
“My God shall supply all your need according to His riches in Christ Jesus. Philippians 4:19
Paul knew it. He lived it out.
The resources of I Am are more that sufficient for all of our needs.
Yours and mine.