It was an overcast November day as I remember it
that somehow matched my mood
so many years ago.
Nothing seemed to be happening
and that longing in my heart
to have my own sweetly smelling little baby
refused to be quieted.
It seemed that wherever I turned women were having children
or playing with children
or carrying children. Sigh.
And although I had surrendered that longing to the Lord Who knows all
many, many times in the past
somehow on this day
it hurt more than ever.
“Lord, do you see?
Do you care?
Are you listening?”
Silence wrapped itself around my aching heart
and drew me into its loving arms.
I care,” my dear child.
“Behind the scenes I work for those who love me.”
I smile as I reflect back on that time –
that stretch of long years when I waited
without seeing any indication of answer to my prayer.
Today, I mother two beautiful daughters and my life is full.
But the lesson is etched on my heart with love
and today I give thanks again.
For every ordinary day when nothing seemed to be happening
and every moment of learning to trust when I could not see anything.
Waiting can be so difficult.
Waiting and having no idea of the outcome.
Waiting that leads to greater trust because of a growing love for the Shepherd.
Waiting that tenderly whispers
Will you give me all of your hopes and dreams
and just trust me?
Waiting that draws us to surrender is a sacred journey.
Have you found it to be so?
Give Him all your hopes and dreams
All those broken pieces
and He will show you the Way
that is so much better than you could possibly have imagined.
Are you waiting for something today?
My heart understands so well your longings.
He will never fail you.