Monthly Archives: January 2012

Leaning In


Life has the most unexpected moments. One day my girls and I are shivering together wishing the heater would create more heat. The next day it is so warm that our coats are thrown off, the windows are raised and we all pile in the car for ice cream cones.

In January.

No matter how we  try to figure out things, life is predictably unpredictable.

Maybe that’s why it is an adventure.

Or a discovery.

Or a maze.

Or a walk in the fog.

You think you are going in one direction when all of a sudden the doors bang shut and you find yourself back at the beginning.


How do you deal with the unexpected twists and turns of life?

I am learning to give thanks. Even though many times I just don’t understand.


Years ago I sat in my small room in Kiev staring at all the pink baby clothes on my bed.

Pants. Dresses. Jacket and hat. But no child. No, the adoption failed and I was left in my heartbreak to readjust and prepare to return to the states with empty arms.

It seemed cruel at the time. I didn’t understand. But adoption is always an unknown.

I knew that. I didn’t know why.


What I know now though is that I had not yet met my little girl.

It was another year until I finally found sweet Jenny in Russia. There is no doubt in my mind that she was meant for me.


When the way seems dark and confusing. And you struggle with the  unexpected changes

Remember that He is always working behind the scenes.

Saturday-the day after Good Friday and the day before Easter Sunday.

It appeared like nothing was happening. Nothing.

But there was. God was at work for you and for me.

He always is. Love keeps reaching.

That is why I thank Him whether I understand it or not. One day I might. If it still matters. But for now, I’ll lean into the waves and ride them.

Ice cream in January.



The Key To Joy


I watched as the water flowed over the rocks making a delightful song of laughter.

Splashing, playful, joy-filled glee as the water rippled on its way.


I noticed a bird fly overhead and pondered the seemingly effortless way it soared. Free. Light. Graceful.  Riding the wind.


And then I turned and gazed at the little girl walking beside her Mommy.

Hand in hand. Safe. Secure. Smiling.


The water, the bird, and a small child.

Each finding their own way in our world. Each showing the way to a life of peace and joy.

Surrender to the moment. Relax and give way. Our hand in His.

Trusting. One step at a time.


God watches over each one of His own. Guiding, protecting, providing for each need.

A life without worry. The way we were meant to live.

It spoke to me this morning. His Heart to mine.

Now my heart to yours.

You Can

“I think I can; I think I can; I think I can,” said the little Engine.

Remember the favorite children’s story?  I used to read it to may first graders

throughout the school year. They came to love it as much as I did and it’s truth sank deep into their minds and hearts.

The words that we say impact our actions.


I can’t control what happens to me but I can control how I perceive it and the words I choose to speak about it. I feel a tingle of excitement.

It has been said that we are either talking ourselves forward in life or we are talking ourselves stuck. Stuck brings to my mind my car stuck in the snow bank refusing to go forward or back. Helpless and hopeless. Life is not meant to be that way.

No, listen to your words. Pay attention to how you think.

Today is filled to overflowing with challenges but you are not alone. Neither am I.

With Jesus we can handle anything.

“I think I can”. Those words cause me to smile.

I think I can as I do the laundry, buy the groceries, sweep the porch, homeschool my sixth grader.

I think I can as I go to my office and share the hurts of so many people.

I think I can as I answer that call, pay that bill, write that article.

Because Jesus is with me breathing His Strength into my mortal bones.

Choose to think His Thoughts today.

‘All things are possible’ (Matthew 19:26)

‘Inasmuch as you do it unto the last of these you do it unto Me (Matt. 25:40)

“I have come to give you life, abundant life. (John 10:10)

Yes, now I feel it growing stronger within me.

I know I can. I know I can. I know I can. Like the little blue Engine making its way over the mountain, I know I can and so can you.

Believe it.