Tag Archives: transitions

House Arrest?

Her words caused my breathing to stop. For a moment.

How could it possibly be?

“You are under house arrest. You must stay inside and talk to no one,”

My thoughts raced in a million different directions.

What had I done?

Here I was thousands of miles from home.

I was in the process of completing an adoption

and suddenly this.

Instantly there was fear.

How long would it last?

What if? A million what ifs.

 There was no way to communicate with my family in the states.

No. There I was.

So what do you do when suddenly life changes

and the unexpected happens?

What do you do when you realize that you are helpless to change things?

“O Lord. I really need your help.”

I prayed and prayed.

Hours dragged by as I sat in the small room with only a narrow bed.

One minute at a time.

I never expected that my desire to adopt would lead to this.

Simple meals were brought to my door.

No words.

Then my worse thought  hit me.

Would I ever get out?

To see my little girl at home?

My parents?

Ugh, but I was seemingly helpless. No phone.

It was at a time of unrest in the world many years ago

and for me a time of awakening.

These things really do happen to ordinary people. Like you. Like me.

I just happened to be at the wrong place at the wrong time it seemed.

House arrest?

Me?

Well, after a few days I was released

and was flown out of that part of the country

and back to a safer city.

But I’ll never forget that scary experience.

While the world kept turning

I sat and prayed for release, for freedom.

And in His time

God made it possible for me to be safely released

to board a small, very old, rickety plane

and to fly. Just me and 3 other foreign men.

Hair-raising moments? Yes.

Today as I remember

I’m grateful beyond words

that I was released.

Quietly set free and flown out of that hot spot.

Grateful to once again experience God’s hand in the details of my life.

And while we experience all kinds of changes and unsettledness today

it’s reassuring to know

that God hears our prayers.

He knows exactly what is going on

where you live

and where I live.

He knows how trapped some people feel,

He knows how much we miss what we used to do.

Yes, He knows.

And even though we don’t understand everything

we can trust Him

with all of our moments.

He has us safely in His care.

We do not wait in vain.

Let’s just rest in His arms while we wait

knowing that we are not alone.

And nowhere could be safer

than in His tender care.

 

 

Moving To Maine

I couldn’t be at a more aesthetic setting.

A gentle breeze blowing my hair.

The smell of sea air and the sound of happy voices.

Voices of young and old enjoying the ocean in July.

The sun shines bright warming the beach

and giving all a one of a kind day.

It’s not often like this, is it?

No there are days and days of plain hard work

Where we struggle to just get through.

But today…

         today shines with a promise of all good things.

For me, maybe a touch of heaven gold.

Why I even have my newly bought guide to

“Moving To Maine” by Victoria Doudera.

It’s a dream I’ve had for some time –

To live by a place near the sea.

To write and continue to serve people.

And on a day like today

I almost feel like it could happen.

Only God knows.

But one thing I do know is that one day I am moving.

My last final move.

After living in Pennsylvania, New York, Missouri and Virginia

I’ll finally leave for my true home;

My home in heaven with the Lord.

There it will be like everything I’ve always imagined

And more.

The ocean, soft breezes, flowers, birds singing,

The awesome blue sky with dazzling white clouds

And most of all

Yes, most of all, the Lord.

Those places that draw our senses to peak levels

will culminate one day in a place

A place that is grandeur than we can even imagine.

Are you moving there with me?

The grandest things here on earth pale in comparison

To the One Day with the Lord of all.

So I will read and enjoy these precious earthly moments

knowing that One day it will all be better than

I can possibly imagine.

Maine. Am I moving to Maine?

I have no idea.

But I am one day moving.

Are you coming with me?

 

Can We Please Fast Forward This Change?

Have you ever wanted to fast forward through change

just to get it over with?

It often seems like the day to day change is almost more painful.

Years ago I changed careers.

After over twenty some years as a first grade teacher

I was moved by my awareness that my students were

getting older.

Married.

Raising children of their own.

They knew how to read and write but didn’t know how to have

a healthy relationship.

So I went back to school and studied hard

finally opening the doors to my private counseling practice.

I will never forget those days of waiting for the phone to ring.

Looking at an empty appointment book

Just longing for someone to call.

Change can be so hard.

Whereas in the past every year I was given a class of boys and girls

now I had to make my services known. And wait to serve.

I had to depend upon the Lord completely

and I sure did. But it was never easy.

Then there were the times I’d go to church or downtown

and someone would mention that I needed to be back in teaching,

or I had missed my true calling,

or imply that they knew best.

Sometimes I would try to respond graciously that I’m still a teacher.

Other times I’d just say something to get out of that situation.

But the truth was the change was hard for me as well as others.

We are more than what we do or where we live

Or our marital status

Or how many children we have.

Those all are aspects of our lives but life is filled with change.

Part of the transition is grieving our losses

and embracing the new.

Some of you reading this might be going through a transition right now.

Take time to grieve your losses

but also see the positives in today.

Praise the One Who is Lord of all of your life –

The past. The present. And the future.

Let Him lead you as you follow Him

through all the twists and turns of life.

Yes, through all the belly-flopping moments

where you wonder if you will ever be ok.

The Shepherd will provide for all of your needs

each step of the way.

Tenderly. Carefully. Ever so personally.

Lean upon Him and He will carry you through.

 

Psalm 23    The Lord IS my Shepherd