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Shining Moments

Glancing back

pressing forward

Like the constant moving of the tide along my favorite beach.

Glancing back in order to learn

and grow

Cherishing those tender relationships that meant so much

but are now gone. Heroes of the faith whose very memory cheer us on.

Yes, glancing back to those times where we sensed the breath of His Presence

and the thrill of His Care in an unforgettable way.

But it isn’t always that way. No, feelings come and go

but our faith stands secure in the Unchanging One.

Glancing back remembering times of failure and loss and pain

like minor keys in the symphony of our life

grateful that Our Composer writes the score with a swelling theme of victory.

Always pressing forward like the incoming tide.

Surrendering more and more to His Will.

Wash over my life Holy Spirit and take control of all.

Pressing forward to new challenges – the Spirit taking possession of areas of our lives

we hadn’t even realized in the past.

Peace at last.

Glancing back and pressing forward.

Resisting the urge to remain at status quo

because even that is a myth

granting us permission to do nothing while gradually becoming numb to life.

Pressing forward with the wind in our face.

Pressing forward

seizing the day. Running the race that is before us.

Splash over us, O Lord, and consume us with your Power

Focusing on that City that is before us.

Glancing back for only a second while pressing forward with all our strength.

Will you join with me and run the race that is before us today?

The time is now.

 

Shining Moments

As I checked in at the hotel that day

my thoughts were centered on all the fun my girls and I would have.

Swimming, movies, delicious breakfast, and on and on.

Never would I have dreamed

that it would end in disappointment with us going back home again

that very day.

Why this was a trip that we had planned long in advance.

Every year we go overnight to a nice hotel right after Christmas.

It’s something we talk about long before it happens.

The pool,

the comfortable big beds,

the sheer joy of being away from home.

This year was no exception.

We packed our bags with anticipation

making sure to take a favorite movie or two

and some chocolate.

At the front desk they handed me the key

and we walked

practically skipped to our room.

Unloaded our belongings

and got all settled in.

Pillows fluffed and swimsuits ready.

Suddenly the electricity went off.

For a few minutes we sat in the dark room

waiting

hoping

for the it to come back on.

But it didn’t.

Restlessness grew and with it the unspoken questions.

I went back up the darkened hall to the front desk.

“Excuse me, do you have any idea what the problem is?

How long?”  my voice faded seeing her shaking head.

“No, I have no idea,” she answered. “Could be LONG.”

No idea, I thought. We are here for just overnight

and do we really want to spend it looking at each other in the dark?

Sadly we decided to return home and have our overnight another time.

Disappointments are part of life.

Things happen.

Cars break down

Electricity goes off.

Illness

An unexpected crises.

Sometimes there is simply no way that you could have been prepared.

The key is how look at the disappointment.

Do we kick the wall with anger?

Do we take it out on another?

Or do we blame ourselves?

There is a quote that hangs by my computer

that encourages me through the changes of life.

“A contented mind is the greatest blessing a man can enjoy in this world.”

Yes, “Trust in the Lord with all your heart; lean not on your own understanding.

In all your ways acknowledge Him and He will direct your paths.” Proverbs 3:5,6

Words of peace and contentment. Words of truth and  promise.

We plan and plan

we set our sails in a certain direction

but God controls the winds.

So let’s live life with an open hand

ready to receive or have taken away whatever He allows.

Always lifting our voices high with songs of rejoicing.

How about it?

Our Hope is forever secure in His Will not ours.

 

Shining Moments

I thought my world had come to an end.

   There I was hours away from home

      and my mommy and daddy and two brothers.

Suddenly sent away to stay with my aunt when my mother came down with polio.

Not knowing that I’d ever see my family again.

Not understanding.

Confused and scared.

Lost and all alone.

It was a time of seeming hopelessness that I will never forget.

Four months later my dad surprised me by suddenly showing up

    and taking me back home.

Reunited again our family of 5

   with the best Christmas I could ever want.

Everyone together.

There are times in life when the fog settles in

   covering the obvious from our eyes.

We see no indications of God at work for us.

Matter of fact, all seems hopeless.

We grope looking for something to hold on to

   but find only more nothingness.

Our ears strain to hear something

    anything to show that He cares

   only to be met with silence.

We weep with those who have lost family members

    innocent babies and

      precious children and

        loving spouses and

         parents.

Where are you God? We cry.

And then as if it was yesterday I remember sitting alone on that bed

   so far from home

   and the sound of a familiar voice.

I had no idea what was going on

 as I sat there feeling so abandoned.

But God did know

   and my parents had not forgotten me.

We can not base our beliefs totally on what we see or hear or feel. There is more.

The truth is

    that although we do not understand

      might never understand

          our God knows and is still good.

This verse shines brightly “Though the fig tree does not bud and there are no grapes on the vine, though the olive crop fails, and the fields produce no food,  though there are no sheep in the pen and no cattle in the stalls, yet I will rejoice in God my Savior.” (Habakkuk 3:17-18)

 

Though the fog continues to surround us

   and we seem to be trapped by what we do see and hear

 let’s praise Him.

Yes, let’s lift our hearts high with praise as the tears run down our faces

We will rejoice in our God

     my Savior

     your Savior.

And if the fog lifts

    we will praise Him

      But if it doesn’t

      Yes, if it doesn’t we will yet praise Him.

     He is still worthy of our praise and we will continue to wait upon Him.

A little four year old girl discovered after a very long, seemingly endless wait

    that she was still loved.

And so are you.

Deeply loved. Infinitely treasured.

Yes, so are you.

Hold on, my friend.