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House Arrest?

Her words caused my breathing to stop. For a moment.

How could it possibly be?

“You are under house arrest. You must stay inside and talk to no one,”

My thoughts raced in a million different directions.

What had I done?

Here I was thousands of miles from home.

I was in the process of completing an adoption

and suddenly this.

Instantly there was fear.

How long would it last?

What if? A million what ifs.

 There was no way to communicate with my family in the states.

No. There I was.

So what do you do when suddenly life changes

and the unexpected happens?

What do you do when you realize that you are helpless to change things?

“O Lord. I really need your help.”

I prayed and prayed.

Hours dragged by as I sat in the small room with only a narrow bed.

One minute at a time.

I never expected that my desire to adopt would lead to this.

Simple meals were brought to my door.

No words.

Then my worse thought  hit me.

Would I ever get out?

To see my little girl at home?

My parents?

Ugh, but I was seemingly helpless. No phone.

It was at a time of unrest in the world many years ago

and for me a time of awakening.

These things really do happen to ordinary people. Like you. Like me.

I just happened to be at the wrong place at the wrong time it seemed.

House arrest?

Me?

Well, after a few days I was released

and was flown out of that part of the country

and back to a safer city.

But I’ll never forget that scary experience.

While the world kept turning

I sat and prayed for release, for freedom.

And in His time

God made it possible for me to be safely released

to board a small, very old, rickety plane

and to fly. Just me and 3 other foreign men.

Hair-raising moments? Yes.

Today as I remember

I’m grateful beyond words

that I was released.

Quietly set free and flown out of that hot spot.

Grateful to once again experience God’s hand in the details of my life.

And while we experience all kinds of changes and unsettledness today

it’s reassuring to know

that God hears our prayers.

He knows exactly what is going on

where you live

and where I live.

He knows how trapped some people feel,

He knows how much we miss what we used to do.

Yes, He knows.

And even though we don’t understand everything

we can trust Him

with all of our moments.

He has us safely in His care.

We do not wait in vain.

Let’s just rest in His arms while we wait

knowing that we are not alone.

And nowhere could be safer

than in His tender care.

 

 

Finding Peace in the Chaos

      Years ago during the Vietnam War, unrest and protests broke out on college campuses. In May 1970, four Kent State students were killed and nine injured when the Ohio National Guard opened fire into a crowd of protestors. Afterwards numerous colleges closed temporarily due to a student-led strike.

      At that time I happened to be in my junior year of college at SUNY Fredonia. Fear spread throughout the campus and grew like a snowball of terror. I tried hard to study and prepare for the semester finals. But it was difficult to focus, much less study. A large crowd of students gathered and marched, causing the administration to decide to give students the option to take their grades as they were or to stay on campus to take their finals.

     I remember getting into the car that May feeling grateful to be going home. The unrest and turmoil was at a high pitch, leaving everyone uneasy. The difficulties in our country were real ad remain in my memory to this day. But my personal sense of relief in having all final tests waived was an opportunity for which I am still grateful.

 Looking back, there are always lessons to be learned.

Opportunity oftentimes is clothed in difficulty. The tornado

that destroyed a large portion of a community also brought

many to come to know Jesus as their personal Lord and Savior. The polio that changed my mother’s life drew us closer together as a family, as we all stepped up to do what we could for my mom. From that time on, my love and appreciation for my family has been deep.

      Again and again I’ve seen the Lord use difficulties and turn them into powerful opportunities for glory to be given to His name. The traumatic event becomes the life-transforming experience. What was meant to harm us becomes something good in our lives. I won’t say that I understand it, but I have seen and experienced this in my own life.

     Chaos can turn lives upside down in seconds. But God is able to use the very thing that we thought we’d never recover from to grow us and teach us to know Him better. The key is in letting Him use it all. As we surrender our days, both the peaceful ones and those filled with chaos, to Him, He works within us His will. Having a faith-filled mindset that looks for the opportunity in the midst of the difficulty draws His goodness to us.

      Throughout Scripture we see times where God brought good from hard times. Daniel grew up in a Babylonian culture as a teenager. He stood firm in his faith and his desire to honor the Lord with his life. Again and again, Daniel chose to remember the Lord – and God rescued him.

      That lions’ cage was not the first time that Daniel refused to bow to the pressures of his culture. In Daniel 6, King Darius issued a law that the people in his land must only worship and pray to him. The law had been initiated by rivals who were jealous of Daniel’s success. They were familiar with Daniel’s regular prayer times. And Daniel continued his practice of praying to his God – the God of Israel.

      The law could not be changed, so with great grief, King Darius had Daniel thrown into the lions’ pit. Such a difficulty is hard for me to even imagine.

     Early the next morning, King Darius raced to the pit and called to Daniel. Such joy filled him when he heard Daniel’s voice proclaiming that God had kept him from harm. Once more, God turned what was meant for harm into good. He not only rescued his servant, Daniel, but He also brought glory to Himself.

      I find that the acronym of CHAOS as Christ Has All Our Solutions is an easy way to remember that God has power over all of our problems and difficulties. He has us. As we place our complete trust in Him, He reveals His plan and purpose. He will never leave us and never fail us. The wonder of that truth simply leaves me speechless.

     So whatever you’re facing right now – whether it appears to be a difficulty or not – remember that behind the scenes God continues to work for you. He loves you and longs for you to know Him personally. God will use any circumstances to strengthen your faith in Him. As He does that, He anchors you so that no matter how difficult the situation is, your faith holds.  And He gives you peace as He walks with you through everything.

      Like Daniel, we can have confidence that even though the circumstances are out of our hands, God’s promise of care and protection is sure. Time and time again I, along with many others, have experienced God’s amazing keeping power.

     You might wonder if you can really trust Him. Your feelings might tell you otherwise. But truth as revealed in God’s word says:

“And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love Him, who have been called according to his purpose.” ~ Romans 8:28 (NIV)

     This is not a hope. It is not a vague option. It’s an absolute certainty. God uses all things – both the good and the bad – for the good of the one who loves Him. Terrible things do

happen. But God sometimes uses affliction to teach us His

best lessons.

     People sometimes take this verse out of context. For instance if our tire blows out on the way home from work, we might think there’s going to be a sale on tires. But that’s not what God’s Word is saying. The “good” referred to in this verse is not necessarily to make us happy and healthy, but to make us holy like Jesus.

     We may in fact go through many difficulties in life, but one day we will be like the Lord Jesus Christ. Whatever our circumstances, we can have peace knowing that God has promised to bring about His purpose in our lives.

         Finding peace in the chaos involves discovering Him no matter what the circumstance. He draws us to Himself so that we can trust His love and His keeping power, just like Daniel did. Gradually the Lord develops within us an anchor that holds all the time. We live in an increasingly chaotic world, but God is the same – yesterday, today and forever. His truths are eternal and dependable.

       Spend time in the quiet reminding yourself of God’s perfect love. Be still, and remember the moments when He has protected you and provided for you. Go over His promises in your mind and open your heart to receive His gift of peace. As you do this again and again, He will create within you a solid faith that is not dependent on circumstances or feelings, but totally rests on the Lord Jesus Christ.

      What joy to realize that He is greater than we can possibly imagine, and He is stronger than we’d ever experienced. Through it all, He creates us to be shining lights in a dark world.

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Help, Lord! I’m Going Crazy!

It’s funny how just an overload of tough things can cause you to feel over your head.

Water pipes burst.

 Baby with an ear infection.

Washer breaks down and a check bounces.

And at that moment….at that particular moment

you feel completely overwhelmed.

Too much. It’s all just too much.

At least that’s how it feels at that moment.

But can we trust out feelings?

Honestly, my feelings have proved to be wrong again and again and again.

The Lord says “Do not fear for I am with you.

Do not be dismayed for I am your God.

I will strengthen you and help you.

I will uphold you with my righteous right hand.” Is. 41:10

Upheld by Him?

The Lord of all Creation.

King of Kings.

The Everlasting One.

He is the One Who promises to be with and help

those who call out to Him.

Every mishap, every overload is another opportunity

to come to Him in your need

and find Him faithful.

So when faced with a crisis

take a moment to breathe

and to lift your thoughts to Him.

Call out your need;

Cry out your petition;

Come to Him with those crazy feelings.

He will help you.

This is His promise and He cares for you.