Shining Moments

It was only as I stepped out on something beyond myself

beyond my own abilities

and strengths

that I began to really see God’s faithfulness.

I had always expected to be a mother

always dreamed of holding my own little, sweet smelling infant,

but when life did not unfold that way I had imagined

I wondered.

I waited and prayed

“Your Will, not mine, O God.”

Then suddenly, in rapid time, the sea of impossibility opened

and I found myself traveling to Russia

to adopt my little daughter.

Joy beyond words. Shining moments all over.

Single mother working full time.

God provided.

Moment by moment.

Day by day.

“Expect great things from Me,” I sensed Him whispering.

Finding a mysterious bag at my front door

filled with little girl outfits, tiny shoes and tights

God’s provision. Although I never discovered who left those bags

I knew that God was behind it.

Beyond myself.

I desperately needed Him.

Then seven years later a mysterious tug at my heart.

Another child?

Oh my, this was really beyond my ability to even conceive.

But I followed

one step at a time

and once again He opened the Way.

Days when I had no idea how…..

but I knew Who

so I moved forward.

A car accident a few weeks before I needed to fly to Russia to complete an adoption.

My car totaled

Agonizing over not having enough money.

Beyond myself

Eyes focused on Him.

A never to be forgotten day when I went to work

and as I turned the key to my office

noticed a white envelope on the floor.

Heart beating wildly as I ripped it open

finding a pile of $100 bills.

Tears streaming down my face.

God you are so good. Thank you, thank you, thank you.

A chorus of praises echoing all around.

Enough. He provided exactly enough to do what He had called me to do.

Bringing my second child home.

working hard to support my girls.

Always depending

Knowing we are living beyond ourselves.

But faithfully seeing it again and again and again.

Expect great things from God

    Attempt great things for God. –william carey.

Our loving Lord calls us to find Him faithful

But in order to do that

we must be willing to step out on faith

beyond our own abilities.

Where if we fail, we fail.

Completely dependent on Him.

Only then will we see that He is better than we our highest thoughts.

More loving than our hearts can even imagine.

Holy and faithful and true.

Yesterday the end of the month

depending on Him

needing Him to supply our needs.

Heart racing

Watching the clock

Whispers of prayers

And suddenly seeing again Him meeting every need.

Hallelujah! What a Savior!

Have you found Him faithful and true?

“My God shall supply all your need according to His riches in Christ Jesus. Philippians 4:19

Paul knew it. He lived it out.

The resources of I Am are more that sufficient for all of our needs.

Yours and mine.

 

 

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