Monthly Archives: January 2017

Even Though

I remember it like it was yesterday. Sitting in the small room in Kiev.

Surrounded by many  baby girl things. Little pink overalls. A matching pink sweater.

Tiny pink shoes.  Delicate socks. And more….

And all I could think was “That’s it.”

After all the hard work of adoption

that was all I had.

No baby girl. Empty arms. Broken dreams.

Even though I had spent years preparing to bring her home

It all ended with sudden heartbreaking failure.

Even though…..

I was left to sort out my thoughts and to process the pain alone

before I returned to my daughter in the states.

Even though….

My mind wanders again to the prayers for healing and reconciliation

that ended in death.

Even though….

And then that sudden death.

the one that completely caught me by surprise.

I had no idea, no way of knowing.

But that ending came slamming into my life

leaving me shattered with unfulfilled hopes,  emptiness and a broken heart.

Even though….

And that time when there was no money left in the account and that bill needed to be paid.

Even though…

And that time when nothing seemed to make sense and night and day my heart beat with pain.

Even though….

Yes, even though you walk through that dark valley

He promises to be there.

For you. For me.

And even though every one misunderstands

He whispers His faithfulness and love.

And even though age gradually comes

with the changes of body, energy and abilities

He continues to give us new dreams and hopes as we place our trust in Him.

“Even though’ does not define us.

No, its something we experience giving us opportunities to lean upon the Lord.

Are you having an ‘Even though’ season?

Let Him draw you into His loving arms

right now

and fill your broken heart with peace.

Even though…

you are loved with a love that never changes

and you are never alone.jan 31 snow

Moments That Warm My Heart

“Good morning, Miss Brani.”

My heart beat with joy

and instantly I was carried back years and years ago

to a time when I sat at my desk and greeted my first graders each school day.

Smiles and laughter.  Giggles and a chorus of voices.

Moments that I will treasure forever.  Ten thousand special moments.

What I wouldn’t give to be able to experience that again.

Sigh.

But this is what is so amazing.

Today as a coach I am able to work with people who live anywhere

Both here in the U.S. and even overseas.

I am equipped and available to help folks dealing with a variety of challenges.

People who are longing to grow and move forward in their lives.

So if you happen to be one of my former students

or not

please feel free to contact me about coaching.

I’d love to hear from you.

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Opening The Door To God

In the midst of the constant press of life

my soul hungers

yes, craves for quiet.

Sometimes it seems as if I am losing this fight

as uphill I press pushing against the noise of the day.

Longing for that still place

thirsty for Him.

And then I read this simple quote by Sarah Clarkson

“I am convinced, no, more like convicted, that to claim a few still spaces in which beauty is found and silence kept, is to open the door to God.”

and a light shone brightly along my path.

Instead of fighting against

I must claim.

Instead of trying harder

I only need to choose a few still spaces.

So with fresh resolve I now turn away from the noise

and into the beauty and silence.

Early morning walks capturing beauty all around.

Late night tea parties carving special memories in my heart.

Islands of conversation here

and a song quietly played there.

Claiming the beauty

Savoring the quiet.

And as I do so

I. too. a, finding the door to God opening

and with it

peace.

 

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