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When Mother’s Day Is Hard

Life is not made up of big moments…

but in many simple,  ordinary days.

Days when there is no one to pat you on the back and cheer you on.

Days when you feel alone.

Moments when there is no one who even seems to notice.

Ordinary days.

We must give our best on those days

and big moments will come only now and then.

That is life.

For many, many years I longed to be a mother.

My heart would ache at each Mother’s Day celebration and I wondered.

Would I ever hold my own, freshly bathed, sweet smelling baby?

Tears flowed in silent and countless prayers were whispered

to the One Who knows all.

But nothing changed.

Nothing seemed to happen.

Slowly over the years my heart surrendered its deepest longings to the One Who knows me better than I know myself.

If it is not to be

may my ordinary life be a pleasing offering to You, Lord.

In His time and in His Way

He placed in my arms a tiny baby girl

and with the gift came laughter, love and a life that flourished with purpose, peace and passion.

Nothing, nothing could have ever satisfied me as this blessed child who is now a beautiful young woman.

Nothing.

Sometimes I am asked if I ever ache…if I ever wished that I had had my ‘own’ child.

The answer is always the same.

No. My heart is full and satisfied that the two daughters He has given me are totally mine.

Daughters of my heart.

His Plan- only mine to discover.

More ordinary days.

My heart still reaches out in love and care

to the many women today who long to have a child.

Only one who has been there can fully understand the raw frustration and helpless anguish

of broken dreams and shattered hopes.

But He is the One Who loves to take every teardrop, every cry and use it

to weave something beautiful in your life.

He is faithful. Always. And He knows your deepest longings.

The God Who never forgets will remember you.

Just wait. You’ll see.

Believe for that big moment. Trust Him to unfold His plan and reveal His Will.

He still makes something beautiful out of shattered hopes

and wraps tender arms around each hurting woman.

Listen in the silence and hear His heartbeat over you.

He never forgets.

For now, your ordinary moments are known to Him.

And He cares.

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