Monthly Archives: February 2014

When I Can’t Do More

019As I glanced at the Market Guide resting on the bookcase

my heart did a sad flip.

Right, my dreams to write – my goals to finish that book –

all placed on hold for I have no idea how long.

Tears press behind my eyes as I realize that unless something changes

I won’t be writing very much for a while.

Life has intruded and with it the needs of others take center stage.

I have all that I can do to parent two special girls and work full time

along with caregiving and a zillion other things.

Writing? Well it’s become more a memory of my past then a present occupation.

It’s not the way I want things to be.

It’s not how I anticipated it.

But

there it is

and nothing much I can do about it.

In snippets of time I write a blog or a bit of verse to encourage another

but that’s not the kind of writing I was looking forward to doing.

No, this was going to be the year.

You  know – the year of finally completing that work in progress.

Demands on my time

and drains on my limited energy

trap be in a web that hinders me in doing what my heart, my very soul, longs to do.

Usually I can look ahead to another time in the year

and be encouraged.

But not this time.  No, the time is completely in my Father’s Hands.

So what do you do

when you must be content with limits on your writing?

How do you handle it when the timing you had planned

falls through and you are left faithfully doing other things

labors of love

acts of simple service?

For me, the only thing I know to do

Is to trust.

Yes, to trust the One Who planted within me the desire to write.

To trust His timing when the realization creeps in

that I might never be able to finish what I had set out to do.

Surrender

bathed in salty tears

washes my heart from its own plans

and cleanses my soul to serve in the moment with joy.

So, if for now, my biggest writing

is a simple encouraging comment on another’s Facebook post or blog

or a little note of love and care

that will be enough.

I exchange my time for His Time

and in the doing discover peace.

It’s always that way, isn’t it?

Love Is Seen In Unexpected Places

He writes it in the sky in every sunrise

and again every night in every sunset.

He fills our skies with rainbows and northern lights

Saying again and again

“I love you, my child.”

But although I have seen His Handiwork again and again

I often grow weary on this journey of life.

Yes, my heart often beats heavy with care for so many

and I hunger and thirst for the touch of His Presence.

You know… You’ve been there too.

It was one of those days this past Saturday.

Busy with so many things to do but not enough time.

Working hard upstairs at my computer.

Watching the clock and seeing that things were taking much longer to complete.

I rose from my seat and strolled over to the window

to gaze out at the newly fall snow.

Suddenly my eyes looked down and I saw it.

A huge Valentine on the snow.

“I love you.”

Joy beyond words flooded my heart

Love energized.

Love encouraged.

Love lifted me up from the daily necessities

into the awareness of His Forever Presence.

Weary eyes sparkled again with hope and new life.

Yes, two special daughters surprised me with the heart in the snow

andvalentine snow I knew the Hand behind it.

Constantly caring

irresistibly drawing

unexplainably declaring again and again

that we are not alone.

No, He walks beside us

through every day.

Look for His fingerprints as you go through your day.

He delights to reveal Himself to those Who wait on Him.

 

Let The Light Shine For You Today

1798566_10201753137646557_2117107_nThe cold winds of winter rip against my jacket

and flip my scarf as I go about my daily activities.

I long to enjoy all these moments but I must admit there are times

that the harshness of the season stirs within me

a longing to fast forward to spring –

a time when the warm gentle breezes delight my soul

and the blooming flowers encourage my heart.

But for now it’s winter.

Outside my home is a lamp post

whose light has refused to come on for weeks.

New light bulb and all

but still it refused to shine.

Until suddenly last week at a most unexpected moment

I noticed

the light was shining brightly

and my soul rejoiced with wonder and surprise.

At almost the same time I remembered  those familiar words of the psalmist

“Surely goodness and mercy shall follow me all the days of my life

And I will dwell in the house of the Lord forever.” Psalm 23: 6

Brilliant light flooded my soul as these precious words came to mind.

All the days – spring, summer, fall and most of all winter.

Goodness and mercy will follow me.

They are here

following me as I race inside to the warmth of home

and dash outside again to get in my car again.

God’s goodness and keeping are mine

His mercy surrounds my life.

I do not understand it but I know that it is true.

For me

and for you.

He is with us – tenderly caring for us and knowing our human struggles.

Let the light come on today wherever you are.

Glorious oceans of warming light as your heart is touched with His eternal Love.

And as we muse together on His Love

together we dwell in His Keeping.